Wolfhealer Writes

Ups and down and side-wayzes Soooooo MUCH to juggle-ify I made it through the headache/spinal cord right side of body numb thing yesterday without going over into the 20 mg pred range - 2.5 @ 6am 2.5 @ 8 am 2.5 @ noon ishy w a ¼ perk boost 2.5 @ 2 pm 5 before bed = 15 mg - which usually on a headache like this I gotta push it to 20 or 25 but I am stressed about puffy face and didn’t want to go backwards if i didn’t have to I have to keep reminding myself that the A1C number reflects the winthrop vacation and food binge clear back when I was eating allll the things on the nebulizer and the high pred - the diet (as in what i eat food plan not starving self)  has actually  leveled off in stages 3/4/5 weeks ago - but the test shows all 3 months and I WAS eating all the sugar in january and february …. Most of the sugar - too - high symptoms have already abated or are so minimal that they aren’t affecting me much All the support Nathan and I got REALLY helpe...

So the first round of test results from new comm health doctor show all good/okay - nothing standee outee - which is good news/bad news I was on 25 mg prednisone at the time - which is the drug that calms those things down and had been on higher doses and on it for extended period of time - So what the tests can’t show - is what would show if I were NOT on the prednisone Its a catch 22 - if I come off prednisone I won’t be functional (even if I could cold turkey it without the slow taper) So unless I had months to come off, and found some way to be under constant observation with a doctor (which no one does) there is no way for them to see right now what is underneath the prednisone So the compromise we make so I can stay functioning - is to taper as much as possible and still function and then retest all these labs about july ish and see if anything flags/shows with a lower but not completely cold turkey dose It’s a challenge because if I am functional the predniso...

Okay - I am finally where I can type and see and can swallow and almost talk a little bit. Today’s thing is a major cluster fudge of stuff all combined. My body is still healing and processing all the cortisol remnants, thus the fluid pockets and puff and unpuff - I am doing better, but today it sure doesn’t feel like it - the last few days before sunday I pushed hard - to keep integrity around money and to try to heal client relationships and make up sessions that have been missed, and try to get the resources to fix the toilets, car and play utility roulette … all very important things and still not out of the woods on any of them Today with all of this I have been trying to figure out how to explain to people that it isn’t a matter of me wanting to take care of myself - or wanting to work and get money sorted out - it's more like a graphic equalizer of integrity - and i am looking for the balance but shit keeps breaking and I keep having to figure out how to pay for s...