Wolfhealer Writes

My Relationship Paradigm "One of the cores of our relationship as the pack is the stand I invented for myself and began living in 2007. It has evolved and will continue to deepen and broaden. This has become the foundation of our lives and the trunk from which the branches of my primary relationships are nourished. This stand, this fundamental paradigm is the structure and solidity from which I commit my life to my partners and to the practice of love itself. Regarding commitment; I have found freedom in committing without expectation of reciprocal commitment or of commitment to certain roles or behaviors. I commit wholly and entirely to people, the pups, and to ideals in life I aspire to.   When I look inside myself, I know and believe that I can commit, not based on anything external. This allows myself and my partners to grow and be whole at our own pace, honoring our own stages in life and our hearts. This makes possible love not based on ag...

Found saved in drafts... written sometime in the last 3 years. Shifting... subtlety.... I just opened the physical journal I wrote in last nite, and realized I had written over __?__ pages in my half sleep, in sharpie so the light didn't bother other sleeping people... I thought I had scratched out maybe two or three pages.... So much moving beneath the surface... and so little time to write and have it flow.. yesterday is the first time in years? I've written by hand other than in a workshop or class where journaling was part... and I love the feel of the written pages, but it's so much slower and I can't read my handwriting the next day... I am SOOOO on the verge of something - something new - something deep and it keeps getting away from me in daily life something about just seeing people each moment where they are who they are being.. that I feel, connect with and that evaporates as soon as people start talking and asking me questions... something keep...

After an interesting and thunderous long nite with sleep in blitses and many puppies on the bed huddle near me, and an amazing day at "work" yesterday surrounded by people who are doing such brave things.. I feel I need to write this. 8/2013 IF I die first, for any reason, before any of you reading this... After an interesting and thunderous long nite with sleep in blitses and many puppies on the bed huddle near me, and an amazing day at "work" yesterday surrounded by people who are doing such brave things.. I feel I need to write this. Just know, that no matter what the thing or things were and was that you didn't get right, didn't clear up, didn't do all you wanted for, didn't say, or just plain did wrong. All of those, are forgiven every nite .... and if anything was needing to be solved - from my point of view - we were either already working on it, or I had worked through it... just know that ...TRUST that, FEEL that......

Wow.... As part of my clearing head space... after the crazy week... I thought I would "Catch Up" on my blog I knew it had been a while... but I did not realize it had been just shy of 3 years.... I started writing on the trip Argo and I brought the Mothership home in August of 2010 I stopped writing when my writing sabbatical fell through....... When I last wrote, Patrick still lived part time at the house, Tyler and I were still active partners, Naomi and Nathan were just moving in, Sarah and Josh and Carrie and Tom had yet to come and go.... It hasn't just been 3 years, it's a whole different world.... Something fell out for me when I stopped writing, when I realized I wasn't going to get that time off to switch gears and careers..... There has been so much that "catching" up isn't even possible.... so I have read and looked back and felt joy at finding myself writing here again @ butter butte, where many of my pos...