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2.26.26 Relationship Paradigm

       My Relationship Paradigm Originated 2007, Re-Written and spoken at the pack commitment ceremony June 19, 2010, Updated 2013 & 2015, 2018  March 20, 2019:  first day of my last year of my “first 50 years free”  test drive  June  20, 2020 during stay @ home. Now February 26, 2026. …. after the “major fall and the minor shift” in the world and the pack. From a home of 10 at fullest, to “2 izza pack” from 2019 to a household of 3 for the wheelchair year 2022 and back to Nathan and I in July  2024  "One of the cores of our relationship as the "TamarackPolyPack" is the stand I invented for myself and began living in 2007. It has evolved and will continue to deepen and broaden. This has become the foundation of our lives and the trunk from which the branches of my primary relationships are nourished. This stand, this fundamental paradigm is the structure and solidity from which I commit my life to my partners and to the practice...

If I die first...... 2026 version

February 26,  2026 The post xolaire version… Life is different on this side It’s been a while since I posted this. I used to do this every year on facebook and send copies to people I cared about. I don’t know when I stopped, sometime during the pandemic.  It’s interesting I stopped posting it before the first round of heart failure (that I knew of) … but posted before I got sick. Before 2022? When I literally bought and prepaid and planned my own funeral.  I found it, the most recent version! I reworked it last in 2020 for a class….. As a poem. Somewhere, I stopped writing, somewhere with the med changes and the heart failure… maybe I was too close to death to honestly send this…..  This time, I am not on facebook any longer… the politics of Meta… so no posting…. So I will be sending this directly to loved ones And printing copies to put with my estate documents…. If any one has to ever write an obituary, maybe there is something here…. This and that I could grow a ...