Wolfhealer Writes

This was written weeks - almost two months ago and just never got uploaded..... I am waking up and getting settled - today is the downshift into home all fall- this weekend was the last hurrah for travel until I am better on top of things $ wise!  I woke up this morning early early with the strangest sense of disorientation - I felt like I have forgotten how to run the business of my business or how to advertise... it was TRULY a strange kind of scary thing.. I am getting the pups organized now - and then will start getting into the zone - but it was like I just fell off the work rhythm I think part of it is the way this weekend shapes up - it's like there is only one day to advertise for ... and that's Thursday - anyway - this isn't making sense  - let me get my coffee and start typing again once it's in my bloodstream! HUGS! AM ----- I never got back to finishing this the day I started it... instead I did much writing for my business.. including this little pie...

I am standing on the brink of an existential shift... Something profound that will alter my life deeply, beyond time and measure, but i cant quite reach it, or articulate what i am experiencing to all my people... Its too big and too subtle to even express... I am so ready for the weekend and the slowing down ... Time to sink in and through this and come out the other side... I know there is more love there, more accessible to me and mine... This is one of those defining moments ... where there will be a clear line of demarcation i just cant see the picture clearly.. so for now, back to sleep... with wolfy on my pillow and all my happy pups curled up safe around me...

Soooo, today is a new day ... and sleep in Sunday.... one I have needed for quite some time ... We are in packwood in the motorhome and when we got back (my, Naomi, Tyler and Elena) Argo had procured a roast and Benben had interviewed the checker ladies @ blantons market regarding the best "apology" dessert... which, as it turns out is a Carmel apple/Cinnamon spice with a cream cheese frosting... The mood was relaxed, calm with happy conversation .... food, sleep, cuddles.... I snuggled down with a Tyler and a feeling bad benben... (he'd been a wee bit overdrinked the nite before). Great Tyler snuggles ... my body was too sore for a pounce pounce... but it felt so gooooood to feel the urge and the energy to consider pouncing....and just to be not in boss/employee mode for these two days So the snuggle shuffle in the morning, reading to Argo from the iphone kindle, clothes modeling with Naomi, sexy Liberian lessons for Elena .... coffee, a relaxed store run .....

I am going on three hours of sleep ... and going and going..... lol today finds me at a starbucks  in West Linn, OR listening to Jack Johnson sitting with Tyler and Elena while Naomi has her first day during her year long priestess process.... We took the mothership on one more joyride to packwood... leaving graham last nite @ 10:30 instead of 8... Our household this week is integrating new people... Naomi's brother Nathan has joined us in the smaller camper, Naomi's friend, Elena is seriously in danger of becoming an ancillary packmember by default, and Ben Ben is recouping from knee surgery with us.... with all of this, our logistics systems somewhat crashed and food wasn't gotten, packing was ummmm delayed.... and we were doing ice maker repairs @ 9 pm.... we got to packwood and sleep about about 1:30 ish and up again @ 5:30 to drive to Portland.... so my eyes are tired... but we're still up and moving.... We got Naomi dropped off and settled into a beautifu...

Has it been so long since I've written? I have flitted about and been in and out of the house so much that I can hardly remember what a "normal" day looks like...With the weekend in Bellevue for the Wisdom Course and Ana's class, and with the travel with client to Harbin Hot Springs and with another to Leavenworth, I've hardly touched down. This week I look forward to one more "last for the fall" venture in the mother ship - this time I get to learn to drive her, to packwood over skate creek road! As I start writing I am actually going to take my coffee for a bit and walk the puppy yards... I've been away so long that the yards have changed seasons I need to just breathe my own air - taste my own coffee slowly and be with the pups... and see if I can sink into that place I was in in my first blog about just being here - at home and present with my life... So, off I go, coffee just stopped blurbling... Tyler has checked in about being at the d...

Good morning! As part of wisdom course we are journaling our conversational initiative each day- today is day one and I have no idea what to write about that because my head is spinning from everything else! But this sentence is a place holder, while I get my bearings from the weekend. For starters: my initiative is about bringing the distinction inquiry to every conversation with people. Easy with clients, sometimes easy with Tyler... but it will be interesting to see what comes up as I take note and write down about it. I feel like I often bring the distinction but let's see what keeping a focused eye on the "what is so" does!  Wow, I've been away a while here... what a roller coaster and I have so much I would like to type but will be out of touch for three days again with my trip to CA This weekend was amazing - me mentoring the guys in wisdom as well as Ana in the forum... we rode the mother-ship on up to Bellevue and "camped" as I shuttled... Aja an...

Good morning, I am writing a paragraph beween each set of puppy rotations ... setting them into their morning play groups and shaking them out of their sleepy nesses... twas another heavy heavy rain last nite and they are a mite skeptical about going outside... huskamutes and malamutts LOVE snow, but are not so big on this rain thing. It's been 8 days since I landed back home with the mothership and for several days after I landed I was still basking in the glow of that overwhelming love and all is well feeling... and today, actually starting sometime on saturday I started having trouble connecting with it fully... I can feel around the edges the still feeling loved and supported. I still "know" everything will be ok - I am not precisly worried but I just can't get that full on blossoming feeling I experienced the entire trip and I am pondering with my morning coffee and breathing the fresh rained air - why? I want to have the answer to this before Tyler roll...

This is so timely for the things I am creating and doing in my life... it goes fast, it's funny and it makes a lot of sense! Enjoy! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lFZ0z5Fm-Ng&feature=player_embedded

Ahhhhhhhhhh, finally sitting down for 20 minutes at my studio... it's been logistics and logistics and more logistics since I hit the ground running here at home... The mothership landed this past Sunday and I TRIED to hide in it but I missed the puppies and finally came out.... and after my stops today she is insured and licensed with brand new shiny plates. My body is recovered from whatever that crazy bug was and from the medicines I took to survive it... and really all things considered the come down was very very gentle... no tears, no bruising and no drama at home... it's the most peaceful come down off steroids I have EVER experienced. JUST LOTS and lots to do! We are making space and comfiness for our next household expansion - Our "entertainment director" Naomi is coming to live with us while her new husband deploys, and she is also bringing her younger brother. So we're bustling around setting up power/water/heat to the mothership (for the newlyw...

Friday September 10th, 2010 I can’t believe it’s Friday – we’ve lost another day and a half to the bug bug from intestinal hell.... And I’ve lost two days of writing.... Yesterday was resting amid cleaning up the camper after the second round of stomach flu or whatever this nasty bug is... this time from Argo... As I posted on facebook – “you know you love somebody when you are still sick yourself but you clean up the peach and McDonalds barf that wont go down the camper sink drain so he doesn’t throw up again when he goes back into the bathroom ... above and beyond holding hair back... I also mused as I puttered and did laundry that this is NOT the way I envisioned keeping my weight steady while travelling... But all things considered if one has to be miserably sick, the mothership is a very comfy place to be sick... Its so warm and cozy and nestlike and small enough to keep up even when deathly ill. And the bed is really comfy for an RV... Even when Argo was so sick he had to li...

It’s Sunday morning on the holiday weekend of Labor Day 2010. Today was waking up @ 7 while it’s still cool enough to get the pups out for a perimeter defining stroll around the long winding blocks – at my Dad’s in Westminster CO. Argo, Kolta, Aja and I are all settled into the mother ship for the drive home, and today is for social and getting this thing out of the driveway. Driving this home didn’t sound so intimidating until I saw “her” in person again and realized just how big 37 feet really is. I texted my eldest niece savannah, who drives big stuff in the Air Force, last night and asked her if she wants to come drive it for me, but I will get the hang of it given some good straighaways and highway driving to get the feel of it. The mother ship is an older rig 1987…. But I love this style… its still camper---ee enough to be an actual RV instead of a house that you wouldn’t really want to travel with. I named it the “mothership” back when Dad and Marianna used...

I can't get myself onto the profile template here - so here is the full bio I wrote :) Ann Marie's Bio The Pack and the Extended Pack Ann Marie Taylor is radiantly 40 and is domiciled on three forested acres in Graham Washington. Ann Marie (she) shares an abundantly peopled home and community with her three life partners, two poly-adjacent roommates and sister and her boyfriend as well as 22 canines and 9 felines. Patrick whom she been partnered with for 10 years and became legally wedded to April 22nd of 2010 is a full time member of the pack house as well as maintaining a separate apartment/professional photography studio. She and Argo celebrated 6 years of shared life this July and identify as "Ann Marie unilaterally life-committed while he celebrates his singlehood and somehow it all works happily". They share life at the household as well as Argo creating and building his own living space and preparing to travel internationally with poi comm...

So I begin my writing with... writing.... writing about writing As I drifted off to sleep last nite, thinking how incredibly thankful I am for the chance to write, for the entire Fall 2010 to create and dream and lay the foundation for a lifetime of continued writing, my mind drifted to sending an email to say "thank you" to everyone who is making this possible. Then, I thought "hmmmm, maybe I could create an email group for that" then, "hmmmm maybe there's a better way"... "ahhhhhh...maybe I don't need to recreate the wheel", and following up on my mentor training for Wisdom Course, where they have this crazy idea that "social media" is the wave of the future and "email is dead", that, prrrrhaps, it's time to hatch my first blog. So, this is intended to be personal, and deep and maybe somewhat sappy - "thank you" isn't deep enough, I want to try to share the experience of this. This blog is wri...