Relationship Achievements - Things we have survived as a couple 2010-2020

 In the spirit of 2020 being that of "crystal clear and perfect vision" I have been looking at all Nathan and I have been through and gotten up from over the 10 years we've cohabited. Its a lot.

Relationship achievements - Things we have survived as a couple


All this tween 2010/12 & 2020


Age Gap - 21 year difference

Developmental disparity 

Starting poly 

Poly restructures multiple 

Unexpected Gayness

Infidelity and repair

Loss of primary sexual relationship within primary love relationship

Generational differences - the world is a different place now not just about age


Maintaining 3 places: packhouse/packwood and ann’s work studio 


Dependents in form of woofers

Raising woofs/running kennel

Managing staff for puppies - originally packhouse members/Rachel and now the Nikki good.


Long term hospice pups - tieton first - jack second most intense - all the sleep deprivations

18-26 canines at a time with just 2 of us


Deaths of 2 baby pups,  deaths of senior pets (18)

Births of mori pups - march 2017

Adoptions of rescue pups and redemption pack sept 2018

Aja /Kona 

Tatoosh Trauma

Morinoko hi end challenges


Self employment

Unemployment 

Temporary/part time work and schedule changes 

Traveling for work - ann out of state/local

Working in a non mainstream field with risk and stigma

Work hits to self employment due to setsa/fosta and antiquated social and legal more’s


Money issues - normal couples budgeting and pup expenses

Crippling debt and facing it to get back up

Lawsuit for dog bite/fite - suing my own insurance company  $5k hit

2011 repo’d and regot

Dishonesty about $ and rebuild trust

Waiting for MVA settlement for years while recovering from physical and work hits


College starts and stops 2013-2014, 2016, 2018, 2020


Gaming - gaming as identity - gaming as a good thing - gaming widowhood


Household people leaving - ranging from 2-10 people @ packhouse


MVA physicality and life changing 11/2017 - same car - settled sept. 2020

MVA concussion/elbow/knee/low back/neck - massage/chiro/p.t. 

Major Illness (s) both of us 2017 esp.


Fertility treatment and meds - 2010

Infertility and loss of ability to bear - ann’s

Menopause- early due to health /endocrine  2019

HRT replacement health challenges 2018- 2020


Ann’s serious health stuff crashes 2008 - 2012 - 2017

2017 - lungs/spiral knee thingy/burnt hands/falls

2018 angiogram for the brain dizzies


Loss of health insurance - cobra - loss of premera insurance when WA state changed laws forced onto apple care

Medical expenses - longevity clinic /out of pocket/ hundreds moneys for otc

Buying meds other countries - having to stash and hoard


Leg break major surgery - Nathan 2017 - 3 months off leg


Injuries - dog related and yard related

Chihuahua hog tie fall

Kennel /door slam into head


Smoking and roller coaster

Stopping smoking/ undisclosed smoking /quitting smoking

Adderall


Counseling

Partners Family of origin (s) old patterns unlearning 

Narrative of childhood process of healing - N

Ptsd - Nathan from car accident and pups passing

Finding the right meds for the brain to level - many doctors, many tries @ many things finally finding summer 2020

Physical altercations

Recovering from lying - rebuilding trust

Multiple attempts at finding the right counselor

Friends and family not understanding stress of the anxiety and how bad it got while trying to solve

Loss of 3rd ishy partner


Gossip - virtual and real time 

Friendship estrangements - loss of best friends as couple and individuals

Family estrangements and roller coasters


Social media and life changing due to new ways of interacting with the world 


Car wrecks (sans peeps) 2011 totaling herself - 6 months to get her back


General household repairing - always - old house

Other people’s broken agreements esp around household projects - the stress around scheduling /redo’s

Trees falling - lots of trees falling

Logs to build and not the building of the logs into walls


2 people - one car - mult jobs and school - more than once


Good classes - wisdom  - pull training - wolf haven - online Eustress 

Bartending class 


Travel - eustress - for fun stuff like cruise and local trips


Covid (so far) march 2020 - now

Training for bartending but unable to covid tend

Medical Shielding and Medical Sabbatical

Unplanned early Studio closure and plan to move


We are still standing and standing together. 


Jan 1 2020 began a clear fresh start with all of 2020's roller-coaster & Jan 1 2021 wraps up full year of clarity and honesty.

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