Stepping off the roller coaster ride & First day of "initiative" journal

Good morning!

As part of wisdom course we are journaling our conversational initiative each day- today is day one and I have no idea what to write about that because my head is spinning from everything else! But this sentence is a place holder, while I get my bearings from the weekend. For starters: my initiative is about bringing the distinction inquiry to every conversation with people. Easy with clients, sometimes easy with Tyler... but it will be interesting to see what comes up as I take note and write down about it. I feel like I often bring the distinction but let's see what keeping a focused eye on the "what is so" does! 

Wow, I've been away a while here... what a roller coaster and I have so much I would like to type but will be out of touch for three days again with my trip to CA

This weekend was amazing - me mentoring the guys in wisdom as well as Ana in the forum... we rode the mother-ship on up to Bellevue and "camped" as I shuttled... Aja and Zenya went with us! Too much fun... and all the requisite mother-ship funnies....

I had been starting the old girl every morning without a hitch, until of course the guys get in her 90 minutes before class and the starter doesn't work.... BUT they persevered and made it to class, new started and all, parking the mother ship at the Hilton dogs and all, only 45 minutes late!

I fly out tomorrow on a client traveling engagement - to Harbin Hot Springs in Cali to experience Watsu and enjoy the resort itself... a place I have always wanted to see

Then back this weekend to take care of puppers while Tyler attends his body electric course...

There is SOOOO much I want to catch up on ... so many changes with my sabbatical and my patrons health up and down, so many amazing things with Ana... so much I could write about the trip with the guys, new stuff about my Dad and his venture... AND I really need to go walk my puppies since I won't be able to tomorrow.. I have been gone from them physically for more out the last two months than not and my heart is tender about it.... I miss the daily walks and quiet path that looked like it had opened up to me with time to write and "BE" in my mornings...

Argo and I worked until 2 am on the puppy calender last nite, and then looked at the peace corps web site ... it's much more complicated to apply than I realized and he spent probably an hour on his application after I went to sleep.... I feel asleep at the studio and am now trying to get up and running to walk my puppies...

I don't know if there will be time for blogging on my trip to CA, but will make sure to make an entry for each day by hand and enter when I return if not!








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