Care and Feeding of your live at home writer................ May 2020



Written for Nathan May 28, 2020




Care and feeding of your writer/work from home partner




All the beverages - bring to happy beverage sitting place


ASK before talking if fingers are moving


YES, I need the rice thing for my neck


Keep the time on track or my brain feels it


My brain needs to write sentences instead of track your time


Especially for morning & nite pattern and midday dog moves


Prevent puppy mommy ears from engaging - please hear it before me


Mommy ears disrupt writing synapses


I like the google nest time keeper thing it helps brain settle


Yes, plates of food are good


REMIND me to do the walks and zoom exercise classes


If you keep on time and give me 15 min warn to pee and shoe I can focus


I need the exercise & will follow trustingly if you keep on time for pups


Yes, I should stand up every 60-90 mins but don’t make brain go think


Yes, I need to be reminded to pee, yes, really.


I like food


Bit sized nibbles


Less important to ask what food than magically place guessed


I like coffee/tea magically appearing


Just always ok


HUGS are ALWAYS ok - Words check first


Say my name - say my name hard rofl


Wait for me to look up and fingers to stop moving


Trust that I know you exist and that I SEE and FEEL the good things


I just can’t stop the dendrite paths to tell you without losing track


I WILL express appreciation when I get up - YOU ARE not forgotten





I love you I am just braining hard


Ann Marie a.k.a. Writer in your bed

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